Play days and wound vacs...

A lot happened today. Lauren and her Mom came to visit bearing delicious french baked goods, a bouquet of tulips and homemade quiche lorraine, made by Michael, no less. I felt very spoiled.

My parents brought Gunnar and Finn down to have a play day with their Dad...much needed by all. Roger took them to the zoo, then out to see Miss Ada at my aunt and uncle's house. Then it was back to the city to go to Gameworks for pizza and games. Needless to say, it was a full day for them. It was so good to see them, I can't even tell you. They look so different every time.

I worry about them a lot, how this is affecting them, whether we're handling it all the right way. Mostly when they're here, I just want to breath them in, every little bit of them. I try to appear as upbeat as I can, but I have a little breakdown when they leave. I feel tested every time. But I wouldn't trade seeing them for anything, however painful it is to say good-bye. They will come back tomorrow, so I have that to look forward to as well. Finn is pretty funny--he doesn't want to gown up when he comes in my room "I don't want to be a doctor!" he says, fighting the blue plastic tarp and gloves. Luckily one of the nurses found a pediatric
gown that he likes much better. Stubborn little man he is!

My parents stayed with me to relieve Roger. It was nice to have their company,and my Dad came with me to have the wound vac installed, which I was very nervous about. It was very sweet because my Dad behaved very much the same as Roger does as my caretaker, holding my hand, anticipating my needs. I am so grateful he was there for me, and that Roger could have his day with the boys.

So,the wound vac went on successfully, although it has been painful all day, so that's a bummer. The surgeon who put it on gave me a little pep-talk about my desire to go home. She said i need to be really patient,that it's better for me to get wound care here rather than rush home, have it done wrong, and end up right back here. I understand what she is saying, but it's very hard for me to make peace with that.

So, for now, i just wait, go through the motions and hope that each day, each wound care brings me closer to going home and reuniting with my family. Any words of wisdom and encouragement are very much appreciated, my friends. Seriously. Night night to all of you.